new chair etc
i feel it's gonna do me some good to keep up with this... my friend said they enjoy just writing the everyday stuff even if they didn't get up to much that day. i really wanna do that more cuz before, i've only really written in journals when i'm really emotional lol.
i'm still in a bit of a pit. i took the dog out today and i didn't even listen to music or anything which is unlike me lol. i've been ruminating a lot. i'm okay though, i've been here before and i'll be here again. i have to remember that i don't know what my future holds, and i've been surprised over and over by what i'm capable of. i've been feeling bitter that i don't have what other people have. it's kind of a simplistic view and it's flawed logic.
i ordered a new desk chair that came today and i wish i'd been more excited. i was yesterday, but today it felt tarnished somehow. still i haven't actually built it yet, which again is not like me, to not immediately get into something as soon as it arrives. instead i decided to start clearing out the Crap Cupboard so i could make some space for things which would make it easier to build the chair, but somehow i thought i might be able to achieve that in one night as well as build the chair lmao. anyway, i think it might be nice to leave the chair for a bit so i feel better by the time it comes to building it.
in other news the candle i was using ran out so i started a new one and it smelled ok before lighting it but it's SO fragrant and strong it gave me the worst headache lol. either that or it's all the dust i inhaled from the Crap Cupboard.
ok... i think that's about it. i have a thing at work tomorrow i feel i'd be more worried about if i didn't feel so deflated but i'm also just kind of getting used to all this stuff. i'm also continually learning the world doesnt actually burn if you're bad at things. i'll literally survive.
Current Mood: pensive Current Music: DOUGHBOY - Joey Valence and Brae
i feel it's gonna do me some good to keep up with this... my friend said they enjoy just writing the everyday stuff even if they didn't get up to much that day. i really wanna do that more cuz before, i've only really written in journals when i'm really emotional lol.
i'm still in a bit of a pit. i took the dog out today and i didn't even listen to music or anything which is unlike me lol. i've been ruminating a lot. i'm okay though, i've been here before and i'll be here again. i have to remember that i don't know what my future holds, and i've been surprised over and over by what i'm capable of. i've been feeling bitter that i don't have what other people have. it's kind of a simplistic view and it's flawed logic.
i ordered a new desk chair that came today and i wish i'd been more excited. i was yesterday, but today it felt tarnished somehow. still i haven't actually built it yet, which again is not like me, to not immediately get into something as soon as it arrives. instead i decided to start clearing out the Crap Cupboard so i could make some space for things which would make it easier to build the chair, but somehow i thought i might be able to achieve that in one night as well as build the chair lmao. anyway, i think it might be nice to leave the chair for a bit so i feel better by the time it comes to building it.
in other news the candle i was using ran out so i started a new one and it smelled ok before lighting it but it's SO fragrant and strong it gave me the worst headache lol. either that or it's all the dust i inhaled from the Crap Cupboard.
ok... i think that's about it. i have a thing at work tomorrow i feel i'd be more worried about if i didn't feel so deflated but i'm also just kind of getting used to all this stuff. i'm also continually learning the world doesnt actually burn if you're bad at things. i'll literally survive.
Current Mood: pensive Current Music: DOUGHBOY - Joey Valence and Brae