im gonna frow up (positive)
I'm so overexcited I can't sleep lmao I knew this would happen.
Ummmmmmmmmmmm I'm really happy. Need I say more. Maybe. But me and Sam talked it to absolute death and I'm just :) sitting with it now. Contently.
Ok but for the record. Me and Sam are officially partners. Queerplatonically. QPPs. Whatever you wanna say. Besties. All the above.
I feel sick still. I googled being nauseous for days straight and it was like... you have anxiety. And I'm like yeah well. LOL. My body is beat the hell up between. A lot of interpersonal stuff in literally the space of like a month with my two closest people, this job being the death of me, me convincing myself I'm financially able to move out and realising I'm not, me gonna be unemployed soon and gonna have to actually start looking for jobs properly (!!!) and I'm just like brother. No wonder. Flipping. I told my colleague I was feeling nauseous all week and then it came up with my manager and both times when asked about it I was like "it's just stuff, you know". Lmao. Not inaccurate. How can I possibly begin to explain.
Am suddenly starving but don't trust my body not to immediately betray me again.
In other news I've been rewatching Bones recently and I loooove Bones (Dr. Temperance 'Bones' Brennan) she is everything to me. She's like the stereotype genius autistic man scientist who has 100% brain and 0% social skills but she's a woman and also beats up men EASILY and has strong convictions and needs therapy so bad. I'm like man this show was way ahead of its time. And like, I realised the same way Niles and Daphne, Mulder and Scully, are some of the only romantic couples I really like in TV, I like Bones and Brennan cuz it's also a whole slow burn over multiple seasons, I don't even know how many, I don't remember, but it's slow. And I'm like ohh it's cuz that's the only thing my aro ass finds believable lmao. Well. Okay, Niles is like a whole love at first sight thing with Daphne but still they only get together near the end. I just like both of them as characters lmao. Frasier is silly as hell.
Ummm... ohhh and I'm really excited to make some queerplatonic themed matching bracelets/keychains. A little bit ago I had the idea of making something for Dana too which would be really cute, I figured the trans flag since it's in their tumblr bio but maybe Sam can advise me...!!
I'm excited for hanging out on Sunday too, I'm not sure what we're gonna do but!!!! It will be nice regardless... Need some flipping normalcy... and being :3 partners now too it's. Just a nice thought. And on Monday I'm meeting V for her birthday and I'm excited for that too. Excited to tell her about Sam. Excited for her to get her first build-a-bear lol.
Ok I'm going to grab something small and bland to eat lol. My body is sorely missing nutrients right now.
Hopefully I sleep a lot tomorrow.
Current mood: (˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶) ‹𝟹 wheeeeeeeeeeeee
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