deviantart days are over
Haha you get it. Like the one Florence and the Machine song.
Another Omori Monday with Sam!!!! That game is not supposed to be particularly difficult but the layout of the map, all these random quests, optional boss battles... technically I guess if none of this stuff is mandatory then we could get through the game a lot faster but now I feel like maybe we're missing out on 1) a lot of the content of the game, and 2) abilities or other stuff that might actually make the game easier and, may be essential to not make later fights impossible... I was so baffled that I seem to have completely missed Orange Oasis on my first playthrough years ago but today it made sense cuz I literally just gave up on that part and left and it was fine. It just leaves me like... why put it in the game then...? Anyway if I beat the game before then I can do it again lol.
We went through some old DeviantArt stuff, I'm thankful that I left my account up cuz it was actually so funny reading some of the comments on my profile. Looking at old art and stuff, how OCs were in the early days, old commissions I did for Sam, hehe hard to look at but also very nice to look back on. Early DeviantArt notes. We've come a long way since then!!!
I exchanged a few messages with V yesterday/today where she said she had a crashout at one of her other friends, about this guy from work, whatever, and it's like. I dunno. I don't feel too strongly about it now, just feels weird still I guess. She will tell me that she has been having the kind of vent session with someone else that she would have had with me before but we don't do that anymore. Guess I still just don't really know what she means with any of this. Still, we're gonna see each other in person next week and, talking to Sam recently has given me more confidence to be open about how I've felt, even if it's not necessarily V's fault. I realised it's more about just having things in the open than about assigning blame or trying to solve a problem.
Hmm... stuff on my mind. I forgot to mention it today (maybe I also didn't have the nerve lol), but, last night I woke up in the middle of the night, and for a while I was half-awake, half-dreaming about having this conversation with V about how things are with Sam now, and we're in this new era, and it's like, hard to describe how it feels, and it comes off romantic-sounding when it isn't, but it's also just like, man, I dunno, feels different to anything else I've experienced... I think more than anything, it feels like our lives are intertwined and that feels Nice. I said I had some thoughts and now I dunno what I've told them or not lmao. We've been doing a lot of emotional work lately.
I have work tomorrow and I'm glad I spoke to my boss about working from home on Tuesdays cuz it's a much softer start to the week. But it's gonna be a lot of intense brain usage again. My brain is so fried I keep wishing for a more hands-on job cuz what I do need is to move around more and preserve my limited mental bandwidth for stuff I actually care about lmao. I wanna write!!! Draw!!! Whatever!!!
Current mood: (˶˃⤙˂˶) brain fried!
Currently reading: The Worm Ouroboros
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