bleuuuggghhh
I called in sick today lol. Honestly taking it as a mini win because like. There was so much scheduled today that was making me horribly anxious and I just feel like I've done SO MUCH already that's tested me and I'm also always feel like I need to be close to death before I can justify calling in sick. I could've probably survived today but I've just been doing so much I'm exhausted and I feel so physically drained and super weird. I think I'll work from home tomorrow.
My friend was saying how she has a reputation at work for being the one who just comes in and sits in her booth surrounded by snacks in comfy clothes and declines meetings that are a waste of time and doesn't give a damn and I'm like man I need to be that lol. There are times when I'm really okay with how I am and I don't care if I come off weird or aloof but right now I've just been feeling so incredibly anxious. I need to get back to embracing my weirdo energy.
In other news one of my colleagues literally gave me a bike the other day that was just taking up space in his garage and I'm really excited!!!! Was terrifying to get back on a bike cuz I haven't rode a bike since I was like... Probably 10 or 11... But after the initial fear it came back to me really quick. I only took it in the park though to test it out and now I'm so exhausted idk when I'll do anything with it again. My goal in the next week or two is to clean it up, get it serviced and buy a bike rack for my car. Then hopefully take it someplace where I can go a little further. I'm excited lol cycling is so fun it doesn't feel like exercise so I'm really hoping it will be good for fitness.
I'm sure there's more but... Whatever I'm tired lol I literally spent half the day sleeping and that's how you know I'm actually sick cuz I usually can't nap at all.
Current Mood: sick Current Food: salmon pasta leftovers Current Music: World Princess part II - Grimes