Actually I'm mad as hell
I posted that last entry and I'm immediately back because I was just reading it back, and then reading some other entries, and... the other thing that I've been slowly absorbing as of late, which is probably the reason I even gained the courage to end this friendship --- is that I am a good person, I am smart, I challenge myself, I am kind, I do the right thing, I am capable of solving my own problems. I am SO SICK of giving that girl the benefit of the doubt when she hasn't given me a single reason to. She has let me down and insulted me and made me feel uncomfortable over and over and over. She is unwilling to take accountability for the way that her life is going. She wants me to feel bad for her but she doesn't want my help. She would rather stay stuck than do anything difficult.
I am now in the era of believing in myself and believing that not everyone is as conscientious as me. This is a lesson to myself --- through seeing how she was willing to behave, and knowing I could NEVER treat anyone like that... I'm doing pretty good. Finally I understand that the good feedback I have received is deserved.
Current mood: mad lol
Currently reading:
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